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Jan 10 2012

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Secondlife Name: ebediyet Matthews
IC Name: Urt
(Previous names include; Gigi, dulce, muneca, and Giselle. Giselle is her birth name.)

Home of Origin: Imperial Ar
Current Location: Writhing Wench
Caste: Perfumers
Companioned to: Barat
(Companionship not renewed)

Nature: Caregiver
Demeanor: Deviant

Background:
Raised in the diseased cocoon of her mother’s dotage, Giselle spent many hours within the household, being domesticated, disciplined, and instructed on her future. It was not her choice to decide her future, she was informed of such from birth, and beauty was a curse that she, poor, and unfortunate was destined. Her mother scorned her for her beauty, not out of envy, but so that the woman would properly conceal herself. She grew to accept that she was hideously formed, and from a young age she’d determined that the best way to find a man who would companion her was to be as timid and accepting as possible; that did not go well with her peers, or her parents. Any man willing to companion her had the unfortunate disadvantage of having to present her to civilized society, though surely, he would be seen as kind and generous for taking in such a malformed creature, and not expected to love her or care for her. He’d already committed his kindness by providing for her, and that was more than any could ask.

She’d coveted her veils, and perfumes. There was such comfort in those small vanities, and upon occasion; unrobed -in the safety of her own chamber- she was able to stare at herself in the mirror for lengths of time, dissecting herself in lines and graphs until she had logically and mathematically absorbed all of herself in this systematic approach of weighing her own worth. Presumably her companion grew weary of her taxing personality, for reasons she still is not aware, she was sent on a voyage to collect a shipment on behalf of her husband, and arrived in a far away village in Torvaldsland.

Current Storyline:
She exists now only if she stands still and the wind does not blow; she exists like the morning fog. Enslaved in the village in Torvaldsland under penalty for misconduct, she was eventually freed only to be commissioned for capture. Who had commissioned such a thing she was never told, only that she should be grateful, that she was a marvelous woman, very beautiful, very expressive, and worth a good sum if properly trained. Giselle became Gigi, embodying her slavery, relishing it. It was as if she was born fresh, no longer afraid of her own body, she was taught how to embrace it, to live in the moment, and she did. She lived in each second existing only for it, and selfishly whatever she could feel. She grew addicted to her own capacity for emotions, and marveled at what the men could inspire in her. Just to feel –and she was so desperate for that- was a gift she’d secretly yearned for, only realizing it once it was upon her.
Tragedy struck shortly after the woman had blossomed, and frightened for her life, frightened for her very soul, the highly religious free woman emerged within the slave again, certain once more that her beauty was indeed a curse, and that she had brought that curse upon those she’d cared for. She was transported as part of a lottery of a select few individuals, and saved while others perished, only to live now with the over whelming grief, and near constant macabre sense of dread, she is convinced that only the terrible can come her way, and had taken to embracing the oddest of things because it is the only way she feels she has control. She has a sense about her that she is unfinished, her destiny having unraveled before her, everything now remains undecided.

Weakness: Quick to become emotional, inability to control her emotions.
Strengths: Empathic, sensory stimulated.

(More to come!)

Photo was taken in the Imperial Ar SIM outside of the Inn.

Character to be auctioned tomorrow.

The lovely dress shown here is the Mesh Tunic from Jane. It works lovely for a gorean slave outfit that is modest, understated but also well designed and beautiful. I have created several outfits recently so please expect something more from me soon. The necklace is from TFG, and hair is from Lelutka (Oscar in almost goth).